URGHHHH, i’m so stressed :| i’m on my 6th cup of coffee since half 6 this morning, I have to hand in one of my courseworks today and I need my course leader to verify work experience hours for me before i can hand it in, i have to have it handed in before 10:20 and he hasn’t emailed me back yet!!!!! WTF AM I SUPPOSED TO DO?!?!?!?
I may not be as skinny as I want to be, I may have a bit of a muffin top and I may have thighs that touch. But fuck me, I am sexy! Haha I do actually look quite nice today :) I’m in a really good mood :D
Today is going to be an awesome day :D I’m in such a good mood, im not craving any kind of food. I think i may be getting less addicted to food :) im so happy, even though its pouring :D
Yesterday was a really good day, I had my normal breakfast, 2 slices of nimble toast (102kcal) and 2 fried eggs (no oil, small eggs) (140kcal) then I had egg fried rie for lunch (340kal) then for dinner I had a boots bagal ( can’t spell it :/)(300kcal) boots salted popcorn (88kcal) and a boots chocolate bar (94kcal) so that was 1064kcal ( I think) but then I was starving after travelling and ended up getting a pack of fizzy pig tails from m&s :/ 560 kcal. Thing is though, I felt so so so so so so so sick after eating them that I am totally put off now, so that’s good :) today is going to be bad. I’m going for a run before breakfast and in going to try to do loads I ab work and leg work but my boyfriend and I are going out for one of his friends birthdays tonight, so we will be eating out and drinking :/ I am going to set a limit of either 2 glasses of wine or 4 gin with slimline tonic. If they don’t have slimline and I don’t want wine I’ll had some sort of spirit with a diet drink. I would just not drink but these friends drink A LOT so I will probably be forced to :/ I will try and be a sensible as possible when it comes to the meal, possible chicken salad or soup? Right, I’m going to go running before I lose the will to live :)
Today was fairly good, had my usual breakfast 2 slices of nimble toast (102 kcal) 2 fried eggs (no oil, small eggs) (140kcal) and coffee coffee coffee. Lunch I had a can of tuna (160 kcal) with balsami vinegar (26 kcal) and my last graze snack which was ammmmmmmmazing!!! (180 kcal) then I wanted chocolate so I had 1/3 of a hot chocolate (60 kal) then gymed it, totally killed myself :) then had risotto (306 kcal) And one of my ice lollies (94 kcal) then I had a small bowl of rice crispies because I realllll wanted them (150kcal) so I think that comes out at just over 1200kal and I burnt around 400/500 in the gym. I’m trying not to be too obsessive and let myself have things that’s I really desperately want just compensate for them. It’s working well in my opinion :) the scales will soon tell. I’m off to sleep :) nighty night xxx
f-i-t-forlife
:D thank youu, im trying not to think of it as a bad day. in the end i probably had about 1400/1500kcals. which tbh with the 400kcals i burnt in the gym isnt that bad. and considering its the first binge in a while, im not too upset. tomorrow will be better though :D thanks for the support <3 xxx
gym didnt go as planned, i only did 20 minutes on the evil steppy thingy because my legs were close to death, but i did do some weight stuff :) then went on the powerplate for a bit then came home. i binged a bit :/ i had a bowl of rice crispies and a white hot chocolate. its not the end of the world, and ive ben good untill today. it was those stupid marshmallows :/ its amazing how addicted i am to sugar :(
what a busy day! i had my usual 2 slices of nimble toast (102kcal) with 2 fried eggs(small eggs, no oil)(140kcal? i always count it as that) and i had a bowl of oatbran porridge because i wasnt going to get a chance to eat a proper lunch because of uni so that was 40g of oatbran(100kcal) with water and maple syrup (60kcal), then i had 35g of almonds (200kcal) in my bag for throughout the day, so i wouldnt buy a subway or cookies and I just ate dinner, chicken and rice risotto (305kcal) then an exotic fruit ice lolly thing (94kcal) ive drank loads of water and had 3 cups of coffee on top of that. also i had 2 marshmallows(50kcal) because my flatmate got them out and i had been craving marshmallows :) so whats that in total? 1151kcals (i added a bit for the milk in my coffees) not bad :) and im going to the gym in about half an hour, going to do 30 minutes on the evil steppy machine doing interval training, my ab workout(the whole 15 minutes today) and depending on how i feel (my inhaler has run out so asthma might stop me) im going to do 15 minutes interval training on the treadmill :)
okay, so im out of bed a lot later than usual, trying to do coursework, I got so hungry that i thought i was going to pass out so i had 2 chicken noodle cup a soups (big mug, fits 2 :P) and a few orange mint ricolas because i wanted sweet stuff. I avoided having any of my flat mates sensations/gummy sweets/chocolate caramel thingys :) so thats good, although i had a bit of a binge, it wasnt particularly bad. also ive drank almost 4 litres of water today so any excess salt form the soups will be washed out pretttty fast :) im going to bed and im going to get up early and finish my work :) then go to uni then hit the gym :) i wonder where i will fit food in :/ night nighttttt!!!
di-sgrace
I would love to try doing that, but my will power when it comes to food like that is appalling. I would be okay for the first day of having it in the house, but I would binge on it on the second day. I tried it with ice cream before and I ate a whole 750ml tub in 6 minutes :( I do have the occasional sweet thing, like today I had a honeycomb crunch pack from my Graze box, which has almonds, raisins and honeycomb pieces in it :) although I think that has just left me wanting more :(